Lost Amidst Extremes

I came across two strikingly contrasting reflections, which somehow, in their own way, define me completely..

1. "If you are first, you are first. If you are second, you are nothing." - Bill Shankly

2. This is the world of business.
The real world,
The world that matters.
What is my position in this world?
At the fringes.
Or, none at all.
Because I don't feel a part of it.
I am aloof.
I feel more like the flower in the pot on the terrace wall.
What place does that flower, do the random trees around have in this electronic city?
They do not matter. Not in the scheme of things.
Yet, to imagine the area bared of them all..!
Atleast that flower would be confident of the definite role it plays, of its importance in this world of electronics and economics.
I am still unsure...

Reflection No. 1 elucidates the power-hungry me, the ambitious, success-craving, confident, upwardly mobile me. It portrays that side of me which wants be on the cover of some leading business magazine (Forbes, maybe ;). On the other hand, Reflection No. 2 is in touch with my 'other side', the emotional, vulnerable, slightly illogical, unsure me.

Who am I? A question that remains unanswered till today..

The Queen B :)

IIM Bangalore, a dream for many... I am living that dream. The Place to 'B' is everything I'd imagined, and much more...

It has been an incredibly long and eventful year, a year replete with revelation, disappointment, exhilaration, anguish, celebration, disillusionment, what not. An entire year dedicated to one cause, and its all been worth it. I have never been so emotionally charged, so satisfied and so intelligent (yea, sue me for modesty!) ever before. From the outside, it looks like a smooth ride, but I know what a roller-coaster it has been. I've seen the highest highs and the lowest lows. I've made millions of new friends, and I've lost a lot of people. I've hurt and been hurt. I've fallen and risen again. I've trusted and questioned, myself and others.

Today, I am happy. I've evolved, from an unsure graduate, fresh out of college, to a more confident, self-assured individual. I am less vulnerable today than I was a year back. As I sit in my room at IIM B and look back, I realize that this year wouldn't have been half as awesome had it not been for the people around me. My mother was my wall, my brother, my escape route.. My friends, my incessant punching bag ;). There are a lot of other people who I cannot name for reasons of my own, but who were probably more instrumental than the people I've mentioned above, in making me what I am today.

I love it here. Big words would spoil the beauty of this statement. I absolutely love it here. I, however, personify the human tendency to want more. This is just the beginning, there is so much more to do, so many more places to go to, literally and figuratively. When I was leaving Jaipur, someone very close to me told me that people love me, not for my success, but for the person that I am. And that I shouldn't ever lose touch with who I am and who I should be. I strongly believe in the power of the soul, and the need to search within, hence, the title of my blog. Concurring with what my soul twin has written here, I believe we are all here for a purpose which may not just be finding 'the one'. It could be as arbit as World Peace. The realization of that 'purpose' is the difficult part, execution is secondary. And in the process, we must not forget who we are and what we mean to people around us. I'm sure all this sounds very cliched, but this is what I live by.. And now, I am rambling :)

There's so much I wanna write.. Will be back.. xoxo

Why?

Why? The quintessential question. Because. The omnipresent answer.

Circa 2008, I think of creating a blog. Why? A number of reasons..
A. A recent discovery of a passion for writing.
B. A recognized need to record and share random thoughts.
C. A certain someone I met :)

So, from this day onwards, this blog shall contain everything - useless ramblings, candid confessions, special incidents et al!

Keep visiting and feel free to criticize/appreciate, as you deem fit!